so very weak.

i am sick. i was coughing so much last night i thought my throat would fall off. it made me sad. but there is something oddly satisfying about a good cough every once in a while.

today is liz's backyard bbq. if i didn't feel like shit i would be excited. then i'm going to steven's point later this afternoon to attend my sis's graduation. i'm really glad that she's graduation. mostly for her sake, i know she doesn't want to deal with that shit anymore.

la la la. i just want to run up there and profess. but i don't. i can't. i know i can't. but there was something there, i swear. maybe i'm crazy and looking way too deep into everything, but i swear... i swear it was there. and this is all under such a time constraint. ......... i don't know what to do. i know what i need to do. but i won't.

well, i suppose the best i can do is shower and hope for the best. at least i actually started to study for my stats exam on monday. :) i think i understand this material, and we do get a formula sheet this time around, so i think i can do it. (why can't i actually study for the quizes.. then i might ACTUALLY get a decent grade... well i know i'll get a b no matter what, but i really need an a... i do...)

that is all.