for you, i'm gonna try.

i want to tell her that she's great. not that i agree, and not that it will help. she's just got to figure it out herself. i just want her to know that we all love her. and we just want her to be happy. and happy with herself. she's such an awesome person. if she only let it out once in awhile. i wish i could see in her mind. what she's actually thinking. she seems so alone, and i know that we all think that because she had a boyfriend that she was always around someone, but i really think that she's actually really lonely. i think that she thought we were going to be weird about it. and thus we all never really communicated about anything. so, none of us know what is really going on. why is there always a barrier between people? why can't you just say what you feel? why can't i just say what i feel?

heidi is sort of dating alex winn. he's twenty-five. a sophomore. he's really nice and very sweet. yes, i'm totally jealous. but very happy for her. if that's possible. but i'm going to guster/better than ezra with her and alex. and apparently one of alex's friends. who knew? whatever, it's going to be good even if it is slightly awkward.

paris said that kristi and emily are interested about rooming with us, so that'd be super sweet if they'd do it. i would sleep better. i really don't wanna get completely screwed for housing. i wanna live in heitt. it would be so nice. so very, very nice. a lovely shower of two's own. :) well, maybe four's own at most. but it beats the plantz ickiness. hooray!!!

okay, you can go away now. (as julie mcquinn would say.) bye.