thankful

i am so thankful for a whole lot of things. i'm so thankful that i am financailly stable. i'm thankful that myself and my family and my friends are in good health. i'm thankful that i am doing what i love. i'm thankful for the people that tell me about myself (if you know what i mean)... i'm thankful that i'm learning about life. (eliana i miss you SO much, i can't wait til you are back... you silly silly girlie!!!) i'm thankful for music. i'm thankful that i have so many people that care and take care of me. i'm thankful that i have a place to live and food to eat and a mind to use as i wish.

i'm just thankful. i am lucky. and i try not to take it for granted too much.

thank you for being in my life. i wish you really knew that. you mean the world to me. love.

i'm a creep, i'm a weirdo....

okay, so, yeah......

shake. that. laffy. taffy. weirdest song ever. ever.

this week has been okay... i wish things were different in some respects, but on the whole i feel that the world has decided to smile on me once more. :) the oboe is SO much easier than the bassoon. i'm so happy about that. granted i don't sound great, but it is much easier and less complicated. :) i've sorta felt a bit down the last week or so. i'm not really sure why, but there is definitely a big reason. which i don't really wanna talk about... but it seriously scared/s the shit out of me. i mean, damn....

okay, nothing more to say, so basically, peace out. a-town down... ***silly little dance paris and i do**** later.

weekends.

perhaps i am incapable of doing any work on weekends. maybe i like being stressed out during the week and doing a whole lot of nothing the rest of the time. maybe i do.

i am totally making chili tomorrow. i'm SO excited. well, i'm just excited in general about using my crock pot. i love it so much. it is my favorite kitchen appliance. :) yes, i am that dorky.

i can't believe how little i'm going to take to london. sorta freaks me out. and not having a computer at my beck and call of the time is weird. but i think it will be good for me. i hope. i'm just so excited for the whole thing. i'm a little freaked about by having to travel that far by myself, but i think it is going to be okay. which reminds me that i need to buy my ticket soon. note to self: call parents and stefo... ooo!!! and send stefo's package... eep!!! oopsies... geez i'm irresponsible. sigh. but london and italy are going to be wonderful. and it's funny that the time that our family is going to see each other is when we are all in london. weird. but good. then italy with my fave sis. :) well, my only sis... who left me to live far, far, far, far away. siiiiigh....

okay, that is all for now, i need to go to the store to get stuff to make my chili!! yay!!!! mmm!!! bibi.

there's one way to ask her.

the past two days i have decided to verbalize my thankfulness for all the things that make me happy. :) i feel better about a whole lot because of it. i think what has brought it on is that i've been majorly slacking on the gym this week and needed to think of ways not to beat myself up too much. plus this has been major stress week. but i feel okay now. i sort of wish i had three-four days to do work.. but i don't. until thanksgiving and i don't want to do work all of time then... plus i know i won't. i never seem to do anything at home. hehe...


so this picture is from last year. at our mocktails thinger... that was a very fun night. we look very cute. :) and my hair was SO short. i kinda like it though... perhaps a hair cut is in order. thoughts??? okie, that is all. later guys.

weekend.

mn was fun... yay for partying.. :) hehe, we smoked... weird... my lungs hurt...

i don't have much else to say, cept that i have a shit load of work to do. but i've been pretty damn productive for the past few days. :) must go do more work or take a nap. kk, laters.

hehe. :)

okay, eliana sent me this a LONG time ago, but i just reread it today and thought it fit my mood, so here ya go! enjoy...

Greetings to the Imprisoned Citizens of the United States.
We are Unitarian Jihad. There is only one God, unless there is more than one God. The vote of our God subcommittee is 10-8 in favor of one God, with two abstentions. Brother Flaming Sword of Moderation noted the possibility of there being no God at all, and his objection was noted with love by the secretary.
Greetings to the Imprisoned Citizens of the United States!
Too long has your attention been waylaid by the bright baubles of extremist thought. Too long have fundamentalist yahoos of all religions (except Buddhism -- 14-5 vote, no abstentions, fundamentalism subcommittee) made your head hurt. Too long have you been buffeted by angry people who think that God talks to them. You have a right to your moderation! You have the power to be calm! We will use the IED of truth to explode the SUV of dogmatic expression!
People of the United States, why is everyone yelling at you??? Whatever happened to ... you know, everything? Why is the news dominated by nutballs saying that the Ten Commandments have to be tattooed inside the eyelids of every American, or that Allah has told them to kill Americans in order to rid the world of Satan, or that Yahweh has instructed them to go live wherever they feel like, or that Shiva thinks bombing mosques is a great idea? Sister Immaculate Dagger of Peace notes for the record that we mean no disrespect to Jews, Muslims, Christians or Hindus. Referred back to the committee of the whole for further discussion.
We are Unitarian Jihad. We are everywhere. We have not been born again, nor have we sworn a blood oath. We do not think that God cares what we read, what we eat or whom we sleep with. Brother Neutron Bomb of Serenity notes for the record that he does not have a moral code but is nevertheless a good person, and Unexalted Leader Garrote of Forgiveness stipulates that Brother Neutron Bomb of Serenity is a good person, and this is to be reflected in the minutes.
Beware! Unless you people shut up and begin acting like grown-ups with brains enough to understand the difference between political belief and personal faith, the Unitarian Jihad will begin a series of terrorist-like actions. We will take over television studios, kidnap so-called commentators and broadcast calm, well-reasoned discussions of the issues of the day. We will not try for "balance" by hiring fruitcakes; we will try for balance by hiring non-ideologues who have carefully thought through the issues.
We are Unitarian Jihad. We will appear in public places and require people to shake hands with each other. (Sister Hand Grenade of Love suggested that we institute a terror regime of mandatory hugging, but her motion was not formally introduced because of lack of a quorum.) We will require all lobbyists, spokesmen and campaign managers to dress like trout in public. Televangelists will be forced to take jobs as Xerox repair specialists. Demagogues of all stripes will be required to read Proust out loud in prisons.
We are Unitarian Jihad, and our motto is: "Sincerity is not enough." We have heard from enough sincere people to last a lifetime already. Just because you believe it's true doesn't make it true. Just because your motives are pure doesn't mean you are not doing harm. Get a dog, or comfort someone in a nursing home, or just feed the birds in the park. Play basketball. Lighten up. The world is not out to get you, except in the sense that the world is out to get everyone.
Brother Gatling Gun of Patience notes that he's pretty sure the world is out to get him because everyone laughs when he says he is a Unitarian. There were murmurs of assent around the room, and someone suggested that we buy some Congress members and really stick it to the Baptists.
But this was deemed against Revolutionary Principles, and Brother Gatling Gun of Patience was remanded to the Sunday Flowers and Banners committee.
People of the United States! We are Unitarian Jihad! We can strike without warning. Pockets of reasonableness and harmony will appear as if from nowhere! Nice people will run the government again! There will be coffee and cookies in the Gandhi Room after the revolution.
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Startling new underground group spreads lack of panic!
Citizens declare themselves "relatively unafraid" of threats of undeclared rationality. People can still go to France, terrorist leader says.

CHEESE!!!!

well, i did see the wallace and grommit movie last friday... it was SO good. it made me very happy. it was very cute and i just love claymation... so much!

now that it is reading period i really have to do work... i have so much to do and yet no ambition to do anything at all. sigh... i feel sorta bad about my enst midterm. but i totally didn't know what to study, i hate when they don't give you any direction beyond 'just look at your lecture notes.' i went to every single class and read the chapters and took pretty decent notes, and i still don't think i did that well. i mean, i don't really care because it is a class that doesn't really matter... but i hate feeling like that. grr...

two days and no gym... i should have gone this morning, but somehow sleeping in and eating breakfast seemed like a better option. maybe i'll go later today. it prolly won't happen. :( oh well, there's always next week, right???

eep! so much to do, no time to type... laters.

leading you down into my core.

i can't believe the amount of work that i actually need to get done. i have a midterm tomorrow in my environmental science class... i have pretty much no idea what to study. i don't really like science, but seeing as i can take this class and it knocks off both of my science requirements in one swoop... it has great appeal... why didn't i s/u this class... i really need to do well... i guess i'll read the book and look over my notes... and i guess look through the power point thingers... i guess. maybe read the book. i suppose... it seems like it is something i should do. grrr!

i'm getting so excited about london. i think i am going to take my cello. it'll mean that i will have to take less stuff but i think that will be a good thing. IT'S REALLY GOING TO HAPPEN!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!

if only i had enough money... hello, mummy and daddy... okay, must do my work. bye.