everyone else is done, why can't i be?

i am sick of school. but i have to do well or i will be more unhappy later... yeah. hm. basically i have a continued sense of no ambition to get work done or to even start it. i'm just being lazy... academically anyway... wow, that sounds like i'm partying all the time, which i am sooo not. but i guess i do a lot of stuff, just not my actual homework. but i also feel like our profs are being way more flexible with things... like still giving me full credit for an assignment i turned in 3 weeks late. (whoops) it was just so nice to go home and not have to worry about anything here. i really did not want to come back. i can just feel my blood pressure rise when i'm back here. i am just so bitter and angry about things. that makes me sad. i'm just way more irritable than normal. and i feel bad for being such a bitch to people, but i just don't care. i feel really apathetic about life, the universe and everything... ugh...

but this summer (despite horrible job and such) i vow to have fun. montana? with friendies? maybe? just generally having more fun and less life sucking all around. yeah... that's a plan. i refuse to be unhappy this summer. the job is stupid but my life is going to be amazing. for real. we will have fun, dammit. DAMMIT!!!!

alright, now to write a paper and be done with it. :D sawwwweeeeettt.

laters.