is there anyone out there?

cause it's getting harder and harder to breathe.

beethoven is so wonderful. if you haven't read the heilingenstadt testament, you are seriously missing out. it is the most emotional and truthful piece of writing i have ever read. how he could value his art so much that he took a step back from the edge of despair. absolutely amazing. he was living for music. so cool.

i'm finally done with my finals. i never thought i would come to this place.. never... but i have. it is good. i have lots to before i go home, but i'm SO excited. must remember to go through my costumes and bring back some hilarious stuff. i'm also really excited to see nik for awhile.. i wish i could go to the cities and see you shamalingus, but i can't. i wish i wasn't working, but i really need the money. oh, which reminds me to reply to the guy for the rochester street market. (it's a new thing this year... which i am also going to be playing at this summer... hello $$$) this summer is going to be freaking sweet! i hope. i will make it so. and i'm going to learn how to cook. for real this time.

okay, i better clean or watch a movie or something productive... kk, laters.