graduation.

i want to be done with school. i want to be so far away from it that i can't even think about it anymore. i am sick of it. i know that seems weird, since i'm going to be a teacher, but i'm sick of just learning about what i want to do. i want to do it. i want to be an 'adult' or whatever that means. i want to not have to go to class... more specifically classes i really don't care about. sigh. i don't want to do anything. i want to coast... i can feel myself starting too... but i can't. i have so many things that need to get done before i can even start thinking about that. ugh. frustration.

i see how it is. are we even friends anymore? really?

i guess i'll just feign ignorance.... sigh.

maybe things will get better. maybe i'll grow a pair. maybe life is just a bitch and then you die, rachel. who knows? not me.