i feel...

on the whole i feel better. i feel very stupid for my gossiping yesterday. and i don't really know why i freaked out so much... mostly cause i felt like crap anyway and didn't need to be reminded why i had been so upset the days before. i just wanted a night to not worry about that shit... but since i'm stupid and said all that shit... i deserved it. i did. but i don't think i was spreading rumors... in that everything that i said was just based on personal experience with these girls. whatever... it doesn't matter and i just need to not think about stuff... mostly i just want to not be here right now. i just want to go home and not have all this shit happening right now...

maybe this weekend will be better... i guess...