i love that feeling.

when music just makes you want to cry or shout or shudder...

the orchestra concert last night was pretty amazing. everything just clicked and we actually performed really well. :D the dvorak was so lovely. the resphigi was really beautiful. things just came together and we could all tell that mr. becker was so happy with us. especially after the last two concerts.... (the first two this year were actually pretty decent)....

i haven't felt that in awhile. that complete awe and excitement. i can't even really explain it. and i hope everyone gets it from the one thing that they love so much and feel so deeply. it just made me feel so happy to be alive and to be able to be a musician. yeah, i'm sappy, but it was amazing.

loves!

movies....

well i loves the movies.... and i've seen a boat load. and own a lot too i guess.... this is just the tip of the iceberg really.... but i thought it was fun and let me procrastinate some more....


(x) Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Grease
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean
(x) Pirates of the Caribbean 2: Dead Man's Chest
(x) Boondock Saints
(x) Fight Club
() Starsky and Hutch
(x) Neverending Story (part II and the animated version)
() Blazing Saddles
(x) Airplane

(x) The Princess Bride
(x) AnchorMan
(x) Napoleon Dynamite
(x) Labyrinth
(x) Saw
() Saw II
() White Noise
() White Oleander
(x) Anger Management
(x)50 First Dates
(x) The Princess Diaries
(x) The Princess Diaries 2: Royal Engagement

(x) Scream
(x) Scream 2
(x) Scream 3
(x) Scary Movie
(x) Scary Movie 2
(x) Scary Movie 3
() Scary Movie 4
() American Pie
() American Pie 2
() American Wedding
() American Pie Band Camp

(x) Harry Potter 1
(x)Harry Potter 2
(x) Harry Potter 3
(x) Harry Potter 4
() Resident Evil 1
() Resident Evil 2
(x) The Wedding Singer
() Little Black Book
(x) The Village
() Lilo & Stitch

(x) Finding Nemo
(x) Finding Neverland
(x) Signs
(x) The Grinch
(x) Texas Chainsaw Massacre (the original from longs ago)
() Texas Chainsaw Massacre: The Beginning
(x) White Chicks
(x) Butterfly Effect
() 13 Going on 30
() I, Robot
() Robots

(x) Dodgeball: A True Underdog Story
() Universal Soldier
(x) Lemony Snicket: A Series Of Unfortunate Events
() Along Came Polly
(x) Deep Impact
() KingPin
(x) Never Been Kissed
(x) Meet The Parents
(x) Meet the Fockers
() Eight Crazy Nights
(x) Joe Dirt (sadly)
(x) KING KONG(and then got the flu)

(x) A Cinderella Story
() The Terminal
() The Lizzie McGuire Movie
() Passport to Paris
(x) Dumb & Dumber
() Dumber & Dumberer
() Final Destination
() Final Destination 2
() Final Destination 3
() Halloween
(x) The Ring
(x) The Ring 2
() Surviving X-MAS
(x) Flubber

() Harold & Kumar Go To White Castle
(x) Practical Magic
(x)Chicago
()Ghost Ship
(x) From Hell
() Hellboy
(x) Secret Window
() I Am Sam
(x) The Whole Nine Yards
() The Whole Ten Yards

(x) The Day After Tomorrow
(x) Child's Play (i believe i've watched 1-4)
(x) Seed of Chucky
(x) Bride of Chucky
(x) Ten Things I Hate About You
() Just Married
() Gothika
(x) Nightmare on Elm Street
(x) Sixteen Candles
() Remember the Titans
() Coach Carter
() The Grudge
() The Grudge 2
(x)The Mask
() Son Of The Mask

(x) Bad Boys
() Bad Boys 2
() Joy Ride
() Lucky Number Sleven
(x) Ocean's Eleven
(x) Ocean's Twelve
(x) Bourne Identity( i fuggin hate this goddamn movie!)
() Bourne Supremecy
() Lone Star
(x) Bedazzled
() Predator I
() Predator II
() The Fog
(x) Ice Age
() Ice Age 2: The Meltdown
() Curious George

() Independence Day
() Cujo
() A Bronx Tale
() Darkness Falls
() Christine
(x) ET
() Children of the Corn
() My Bosses Daughter
(x) Maid in Manhattan
(x) War of the Worlds(thanks, tom cruise for ruining a perfectly good story and creating a piece of crap!)
(x) Rush Hour
(x) Rush Hour 2

() Best Bet
(x) How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(x) She's All That
(x) Calendar Girls
() Sideways
(x)Mars Attacks
() Event Horizon
(x) Ever After
(x) Wizard of Oz
(x) Forrest Gump
()Big Trouble in Little China
() The Terminator
() The Terminator 2
() The Terminator 3

(x) X-Men
(x) X2
(x) X-3
() Spider-Man
() Spider-Man 2
(x) Sky High
() Jeepers Creepers
() Jeepers Creepers 2
() Catch Me If You Can
(x) The Little Mermaid
(x) Freaky Friday
() Reign of Fire
(x) The Skulls
(x) Cruel Intentions
() Cruel Intentions 2
() The Hot Chick
(x) Shrek
(x) Shrek 2

(x) Swimfan
() Miracle on 34th street
() Old School
(x) The Notebook
() K-Pax
(x) Krippendorf's Tribe
() A Walk to Remember
(x) Ice Castles
() Boogeyman
(x) The 40-year-old-virgin

(x) Lord of the Rings Fellowship of the Ring
(x) Lord of the Rings The Two Towers
(x) Lord of the Rings Return Of the King
(x) Indiana Jones and the Raiders of the Lost Ark
(x) Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
(x) Indiana Jones and the Last CrusadeTotal

(x) Baseketball
() Hostel
(x) Waiting for Guffman(YYYYEEEEESSSSSSS!!!!!)
() House of 1000 Corpses
(x) Devils Rejects
(x) Elf
() Highlander
() Mothman Prophecies
(x) American History X
() Three

() The Jacket

() Kung Fu Hustle
(x) Shaolin Soccer
() Night Watch
(x) Monsters Inc.
(x) Titanic
(x) Monty Python and the Holy Grail
(x) Shaun Of the Dead
(x) Willard

() High Tension
() Club Dread
() Hulk
(x) Dawn Of the Dead
(x) Hook
(x) Chronicle Of Narnia The Lion the Witch and the Wardrobe (bbc version is my fave forever and ever and ever)
() 28 days later
() Orgazmo
() Phantasm
()Waterworld

(x) Kill Bill vol 1
(x) Kill Bill vol 2
(x) Mortal Kombat
() Wolf Creek
() Kingdom of Heaven
() the Hills Have Eyes
() I Spit on Your Grave aka the Day of the Woman
() The Last House on the Left
() Re-Animator
(x) Army of Darkness

(x) Star Wars Ep. I The Phantom Menace
(x) Star Wars Ep. II Attack of the Clones
(x) Star Wars Ep. III Revenge of the Sith
(x) Star Wars Ep. IV A New Hope
(x) Star Wars Ep. V The Empire Strikes Back
(x) Star Wars Ep. VI Return of the Jedi
( ) Ewoks Caravan Of Courage
( ) Ewoks The Battle For Endor

(x) The Matrix
(x) The Matrix Reloaded
(x) The Matrix Revolutions(ick ick ick ick... why o why)
() Animatrix
() Evil Dead
() Evil Dead 2
(x) Team America: World Police
(x) Red Dragon
(x) Silence of the Lambs
(x) Hannibal
Total so far: 133

what is probably sadder is that i've seen a lot of these many many many many times.

my thumb exploded.

i thought you would all like to know. and it has a surprisingly large and disgusting crater in it now. i am SO hott. 'wow, rachel... i never noticed how you have such an attractive hole in your thumb.'

laters.

gotta have something

yesterday i successfully did nothing besides my laundry, watching x-3, showering, studio, listening (most unproductive idea ever), dinner with los cellistos, dance performance, co-op party (pretty lame), and a short call from nik and shams.... (that totally didn't count, loves....) so basically i have lots more to do today that i prollly should, but it's all good. you know. at least the laundry is done (ggggrrrr quarters gggggrrrrr). that makes the room look so much more cleanly. :D

i don't have much to say. yeah. this is stupid.

laters yo.

you see what the clock makes you do

and i won't let this happen to you

i love the new pornographers.... so much... so happy... :D

so things turned out okay even though my lesson was kinda shitty. and surprisingly i had actually not as bad comments as i thought i would. although going into the class i new that no one could be as hard on myself as i am. truly.

i've been so good at practicing this week. an average of about three hours of solid practice... niiiiice. and i actually feel like i'm getting somewhere. go figure. and i finally have an accompanist for my vivaldi... WOO HOO harpsichord. sweeeeeet. now if i only had a piano player or two for my other two pieces. sigh. hopefully in the next week i will get it all squared away. WOOT!!!! i'm so friggin excited for this recital. i actually get to preform. i guess i hadn't realized how much i actually do miss that. and durn it, i'm working hard and i feel that the result will be good. :D

classes are going.... i put an s/u on spanish (sweeeeet) so i won't have to worry about that so much. (i know i can for sure scrape a b without even trying at all....) rehersal tech is super hard but pretty much everything we are learning is practical, so i guess it balances out. my ed class is kinda stupid since we only meet once a week, but it is actually interesting material. we talk about teaching 'exceptional learners' (ie, those with learning, cognitive, behavioral, emotional, etc differences at both the low and high functioning ends) it's really interesting but i don't really do much for it besides read some articles. and of course i have observation hours, but i haven't yet set them up. sigh. by next tuesday i have to be good on that.... sigh. so much communication, so little motivation.

but i can't get senioritis. i just can't. these two terms are going to be intense. and i have to work really hard... well, that is if i want to graduate. and to be honest i don't think that i could take another year here. i'm just getting too old. i need to move on.

oye, well, back to the reading and such. later yalls.

i am a stupid idiot.

i taught the worst lesson ever taught this morning. mostly because i underestimated the abilities of my class and also just because i'm so freaking stupid. i'm kind of glad that we don't see mr. wolfman til wednesday of next week because i'm pretty sure i would cry if he gave me comments right now. i mean, i know he can't be harder on me than i am on myself.... but i don't think i could take it right now....

sometimes my own stupidity amazes me.... seriously... it can't have been dorian... hello! major third.... god, i'm such a fuck up..... ugh!!!!!!

thank goodness that i have pretty much a five day weekend.... i should be able to recover by then.

kk. later.

sing me spanish techno

i love that song so much. it can only make me happy.... :D

my term is much more free this time around (although rehersal tech is gonna be lots of work) but i have so much recital prep to do that it is going to be crazy crazy busy to get it all done. but i'm actually really excited to really put together a big performance like this... :D because let's face it, everything is about me. me. me. me. me. MEEEEEE!!!!!!

break was nice. money is nice. friends are nice. school is nice. graduation will be better. :D

okay, back to the homework... AH!

laters.